Return to Normalcy

Why do I am so feelingless? I mean nothing at all is evoking any kind of response in me...Just like going on for some reason...I mean I keep feeling so damn weird. Haven;'t even unpacked as yet. Am going to college also but there is nothing interesting or new happening neither do I wanna take interest in whats happening...Damn..... I am so bloody confused about every single thing in life. It's as if nothing is concrete and everything around me is so mushy, gooey stuff and I am swimming aimlessly in it. Why is it so difficult to find something that you are really interested in and enjoy doing? I mean it's as if I am jack of all trades but master of none... I lose interest so easily in anything... Agreed its restlessness that makes a person 'alive' and 'kicking' but soo much of restlessness?? I have no clue about myself and about my life. God I am such a pathetic sob story man.... God alone help me!

Out with Friends

Went for bowling today. It's fun but gets boring when too many people play together. And I suck at bowling which is to be expected coz I hardly play. After that we hung out at the Mall and had dinner. Everybody gorged on burgers and Indian fast food and sodas... I had a meagre lebanese wrap and an ice cream scoop. And as usual everbody started chiding me for being on the Atkins diet. Anyway I am used to all that crap from people about how dieting is not good and how it sucks, there was this girl J, who started saying that Atkins sucks and you put on the minute you're off from the diet. So I was like: "Thats the case with any diet." And then she goes like: "No No...Look at me. I dieted. ( apparently she lost about 24 kgs by being just 'anorexic'...so she says hehehe) I didn't put my weight back on." God...people become so jealous when you tell them happily that the diet worked for you. Atkins ROCKS! and I am proud to flash the fact I lost a few if not all the kgs with Atkins That is a great start to losing weight. I just hope and pray that I don't put back all that weight again. Of course that requires sacrifice and hardwork and I am ready for that!! Cheers!

Freedom from FAT

Weight loss is such an addiction. Once you shed a few pounds, it starts to grow on you like a fungus. Your inner voice starts plaguing you, if you can look so different just by losing this much, then imagine how great you'd look if you lost a little more. And a little and a little. And it just goes on for the rest of your life.

After this Atkins diet, I don't think I'll ever be able to look at good wholesome, healthy food normally. It just ain't fair, that a few people have such great systems and such nice, natural built in figures! While lesser mortals like us have to struggle with our weight and our inner devils.